I had trouble picking a photo for you today. I wanted one that would help me share a nice story. The task was difficult because I make a lot of weird faces, try on too many crazy hats, and stand next to people who probably don’t want their picture on here. But I found one that will make you smile.
I think this thing is from Bed Bath and Beyond. It’s like a Snuggie, but better. I’m always cold, so I wrap up in multiple layers and hide under fluffy blankets all winter. As you can imagine, this gets inconvenient. I was delighted to receive this as a Christmas gift.
This photo reminds me of how exciting it is every time I find a new product that improves my life. I think of the sighs of relief when I realize how much easier life can be with a little help. Fingerless gloves and wool socks are wardrobe staples. I was not happy with my chilly fingers and toes before those habits started. Writing this post also brings up the negative emotions that come before finding new goodies.
There are some problems, like feeling painfully cold most of the time, that make me panic. I start feeling like I will never know how “normal” people go through life. What would it be like to have their problems instead? When one of these everyday problems is rearing its head, I tend to break down crying because I just want something to work out for me. I crumble into an irrational mess for a while, then call in some help or get violent if the problem is a container that won’t let me in. I have hacked through the bottom of a Tylenol bottle with a butter knife. Don’t try that at home, friends.
Today’s breakdown was over my eyes. I had trouble getting my laptop to connect to a large monitor, and the new book that came in the mail was not the large print edition. My little tantrum was silly. I am so happy with my enormous monitor that helps me mess around with my computer without killing my eyes, and extremely excited about my brand new scanner that converts books or magazine articles into text files. I bought the book because a new friend made it sound so helpful for everyone with chronic illnesses, and I’m so relieved to have found her. I know I shouldn’t be so upset over little things when I have so much good in my life. Speaking of which, my roommate saw me crying, so he got my computer all set up and calmed me down with nice warm hugs. Maybe if I keep reminding myself of happy thoughts, I’ll drown out the everyday problems that drive me nuts when I am unhealthy. Does that work?
I don’t mean to sound like the answer to all of life’s problems can be found if you buy enough helpful tools or luxuries. Life can be so painful, and so uncomfortable, and sometimes we just need all the help we can get. Friends and family can help with shopping, and online buddies can help with recommendations. As always, I will gladly help in any way I can. What little things drive you nuts?